why can’t i just…shut..up?! i can’t ever just get over a feeling by myself, unless its a bad feeling of course, then i bottle it up inside like a man. but no, really. i always have to say something. and that something is usually really fuckin stupid. and then…nothing. the worst. feeeeeliiiing. because i said something so dumb or did something so idiotic that the poor recipient of my expressed feeeelings and emooootions can’t even respond. ugh. i just really dislike myself sometimes.